Here's a little bit about me:
I'm a somewhat recently divorced female in my 30's living in Texas. I've never really been a "dater" per se (or a blogger), but here goes nothing ...
In my history, I've always been opposed to online dating sites. Please don't hate me for being painfully honest about this, but it always seemed like those sites were either for promiscuous women or desperate women that were just looking for a husband - I've never fallen into either category so I assumed this wouldn't be for me (the jury's still out on that one).
I consider myself a relatively attractive person and I've never had problems meeting people or socializing. In the past I've met boyfriends through friends or friends of friends. My problem is that I'm somewhat picky. Not because I think I'm that good, but because my marriage helped me discover what it is that I want and do not want in a companion and what I'm willing to put up with. I have a great career, great friends and family, and I've worked very hard to keep my sanity.
I mentioned I never really was a dater. Even in high school, I sort of fell into relationships and ended up with my ex-boyfriend for five years. Like every high school sweetheart you think you're going to get married, have kids, the white picket fence ... even if you are a realist, like me, and know that relationships never turn out like they do in the movies. By the end of our relationship, we were already living together and one day he comes home and says "I don't think I want a girlfriend anymore." Yes this was unbelievably painful, but I didn't want to be anywhere I wasn't wanted, so I moved out the next week. I found out after we broke up that he had repeatedly cheated on me with practically every girl he came in contact with. Way to get a wake up call, right?
I wasn't single for very long after that. I met my next boyfriend in the same building where I worked. We were together for a while, but honestly, I hadn't been truly single in a long time and I just didn't know how to date so I fell into another relationship. At first it was great. I sort of lived my independent life as did he. I still had all of my friends, I still had girl night, girl trips, we still had time together, it was just nice that we were all right having time apart. That didn't last but maybe a year as we had different goals and honestly, we just got tired of each other and tired of playing house.
My ex-husband was supposed to be a one night stand. Again I met him in the same building - at another job. He seemed like a nice guy, we went out, I figured what the heck - I'd never done this before. Isn't this what you're supposed to do in your 20's? Sow your wild oats or something? Clearly that didn't work. I ended up falling into yet another relationship and we ended up getting married. Again I had my independence and still had my girl time, the problem is I didn't have enough companion time. The short of it - we started drifting apart and didn't go out or do anything anymore so we got divorced. Our full relationship was almost a decade. Fortunately we didn't have any children so there was no drama there.
That brings me to current day. I'm in my 30's and I still don't know how to date. While I have no "oats to sow", the last thing I want to do is end up in yet another relationship before I've seen exactly what's out there. Sure if I meet someone who seems like a good fit, I'll give it a shot. My eggs aren't getting any younger and I'd like to have children before I'm in my 40's.
Because I travel often for my job, I'm rarely home and therefore, oftentimes, I'm not very social when I am home so it's difficult to meet new people or know where to go to find a descent crowd. A friend of mine has been doing online dating for about a year now and he's met some interesting people along the way. Following some of the links he sent me for potential dates, I got maxed out and had to sign up to continue browsing. I first signed up with a very limited profile. Now it's expanded to a greater description including a photo. I'm very new to online dating and honestly I'm slightly paranoid about it, but what the heck? I met one of my best friends online, why should this be any different, right?
And thus my story begins ...
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